I Don't Know

a first draft

I ask you, what if I never stop
Just waiting for the shoe to drop
Will that bring it crashing down?
'Cause I got, scars that just never heal
Even with a love I deeply feel
I just can't find the bottom; which is deeper? Which is stronger?

And I fear that I do you wrong
Just by being a puzzle you can't solve
And I don't want to pull you along
Hoping you'll be the answer if there isn't one

I don't know if I believe in justice, fairness, peace or all that stuff anyway.
And even if I do I don't know if I'm really good enough to earn it anyway.

I ask you, what if I never change,
If I ache with dreams but stay in my cage
Will you ever tire of me here?
I expect my friends to change and grow
But sometimes I fear, it's funny though,
That I'm spinning my wheels and I'm getting nowhere.

Just waiting
To see some fruit grow
Where my hardest struggles tore the ground
And I'm waiting
And I don't know
How long it'll be now,
And whether you should wait with me or go back home.

I ask you am I going anywhere?
And if so, why am I still here?
I ask you why is everything so slow?
'Cause baby I don't know,
And I'm sorry, and I'm blind here, and I'm scared.